It's Thursday

I'm back...

Yesterday (Wednesday) Danny had a trip to Astoria, OR to deliver something for his job... and so he was texting me since 10am and calling me every 5 minutes while my phone's ringer was off and I was sleeping silently =o) He finally came home at 11am and woke me up, and as I have mentioned before, I love coming along with him for a long ride... We were out the door in 15 minutes, yes, I can be a superwoman when the need and desire come together!

I had a great time with my darling, though my plan for the day was to find some comfy shoes... I didn't care. I was close to Danny. We, as usually, talked, listened to educational/motivational Cd's, joked, laughed... In 2 words, GREAT RIDE!

Today (Thursday), I had the car to myself, so I went to Kohl's and got me some comfy (well sort of) shoes. Not the cutest but something soft and easy to slip on. I'll probably shop around some more, I'm not really set on these shoes... =o/

I also went to my mommies house to drop off her order of Fish Oil we got from Costco... It was absolutely wonderful to hear her tell me how pretty I look and how she can't believe I'm pregnant! =o) I told her that it'll be very believable in a few months - hehe Yep, when the baby is in my arms and not hiding inside my tummy. My auntie was hilarious too, she commented on how it must be horrible for the baby to be in my tummy... I told her that she is sooo wrong!! Haha The baby is having the time of his life in there (wink!)... always perfect temp, never hungry, no aches or pains (at least not until he grows big enough to be nicely squished in my tummy - hehehe), and mommy is always near. She smiled, probably thinking what a smarty-pants I am. LOL Well, can't blame her, she never had kids and never had the resources we have now to educate our self on any topic... no Internet, no magazines, and people probably didn't talk openly about such things those days...

I made some borscht today (it was soo tasty, ask Danny! Or stop by for a bowl - hehe), I also made this yummy Quinua (keen-wah) Chicken dish... oh that was soo good, first time and it's perfect! Now I'm too tired to normally function at this laptop... lol I soo want to cuddle in bed while Dan massages my poor feet... they are soo sore... I was on my feet lots of day. I read online to see why my feet could hurt so bad... it could be that hormones are loosening all my joints and the constantly climbing weight causing stress on my feet. I only have about 15 weeks of this =o) I can do it!!! I promise, hehehe

A quick note to Danny: Darling, I love you so so much... and it's 9pm, we must run to bed soon =o) On time at least once... remember my feet??? =o)) They need your healing and loving touch!! =o) Chmok!!!

Goodnight to all.

Danny makes everthing all better...

Last night, as I have written, I was pretty depressed and lonely and Danny, as wonderful as he is, read my blog and came running to me =) He knows EXACTLY what to say and do to make his girl shining and smiling again... =o) We cuddled for a nice while and I felt much better... we talked and joked and goofed around... and we came to a decision that I'll have the car for the day while he takes the stick shift car to work.

I guess I was beginning to marinade in the comfort of my own home... with the same walls around me and moving small pieces of furniture to redecorate wasn't doing me much good anymore. I needed to freshen out and so I did!

I went to Safeway bought some good food, then went over to Big Lots and then Wild Oats... got me some hair color, so I can maybe play around with them tomorrow, see what I can do to my hair =o) By the time I came home I was drained... my feet were killing me but I was satisfied inside. It was just a tidbit lonely driving by myself, but not even close to being lonely as it was at home...
I swear I need some music. Good music can lift spirits up and that is what I need during these physically and emotionally demanding times of mine.

I feel great today, not counting the pain in my feet =o( I'll be out tomorrow again too (yay!), not as long but I do need to find some very comfy shoes for myself... something that is very nice and soft and something that I can slip on without having to tie which is becoming a real chore. So, any suggestions are welcome, hehe

Okay, the time is running out and I must run to bed or else Danny will be sleep deprived another day and I really don't want my darling to be tired... So, sleep tight and I'll be back in a few... days with more to write, as usual =)

Peace out!!

Sad... or nostalgic... what ever this is...

I'm not really myself today, or right now... I'm sad, for no good reason - must be hormones... Sometimes it's nice to have something to blame - hehe. But seriously it must be my hormones, the baby is growing fast now maybe this is making my hormones to go haywire. I took my vitamins but I'm not getting any relief - surprise, surprise!

I'm crying just looking at my old photos from this last spring... seeing how I just lost those extra few pounds I've gained post marriage and how I was excited about the summer... and now my weight is higher then it's ever been, with hips hurting day and night... no relief, my feet are killing me starting from around noon, now my face is changing it's features... all these changes in a short time... it's making me sad sometimes. I miss when Danny and I were skinny and looking forward to camping this (2007) summer, going to water parks, and such... and now that's put off to next summer, at earliest.

My stress now is... needing to cook healthy and learn new recipes that have high nutritious value for me and Danny. I am getting depressed at times that my weight is going up pretty much by day... I don't think I look FAT, but I obviously look much rounder, not just my beautiful tummy, but my face, my arms, butt, legs... I try to think of how long I have left (3.5 months), and then I can drop all this weight back to what I started with. It's psychological and physical stress. Danny must be putting on some of my pregnancy weight too... which I've read is normal, well it makes me feel even heavier... lol

I'm learning to make fresh salads, new ways of making lunches for Danny (without having to cook every single dish to insanity and implement more salads, fruits, and nuts - which I've done for the longest time, but now I gotta do this even more). I know I'll be fine, I don't know why I'm so sad today...

I was crazily (is this a word?) lonely today. I really wanted to organize some of my small clothes and maybe sell them, but I was soo lonely and tired all day that I really only cooked some food, browsed online and showered. Yeah, boring day huh... I know.

Music is what I need... I need to get some good music, I don't really know what to listen to anymore... I want Classical, but some are really nice and some are not so much... I want a nice long CD of great mix of music... something I can play for hours on end. I'd also love to do some artsy things... paint or something, but I'm just lacking some creativity... not sure why. Maybe the baby is taking all my brain power to grow... if so, it's all okay then!! =)

I'm bored, boring, lonely, and quite today... Sad that today is almost over and I feel so empty. I can't imagine falling asleep feeling this way... and if only I knew what to do to feel better, to feel accomplished and satisfied. I don't really know what I'd want to do... I've went through some ideas, but non of them seem satisfactory.

Anyway, even though this page has no limits, I could type forever... but I am running out of words. So, I'm going to hope I feel better tonight before I close my eyes to rest... if not, tomorrow is a brand new day with brand new opportunities... a new beginning, a new start. I can make it better, right?!

Ciao and stay in touch with me =o)

Night out

Danny and I had today planned out since beginning of week... we went out to Stanford's... love that place. Love their Sizzling Chicken Fajita's - yummm! We ordered the Fajita's, the Chicken linguinne dish, garden salad and of course finished off out tasty dinner with a Double Chocolate fudge cake, Creme Brulle, and a Cappuccino... =o) Yeah, you can only imagine how full we were... crazy! I didn't want to get back in the car after we ate, I wanted to stand around to keep my food down - lol! Anyway, it was very tasty and it was worth it. It was wonderful to have had this evening planned out ahead of time and now we're home and the night isn't yet over =o)

Oy, I am still so full, yeah, with my baby inside my tummy is a bit crowded in there... hehe. I can't eat the same portion sizes anymore, though I try!! Maybe in 3.5 months - haha! =)

Hmmm, I think all my energy is being used to digest my food... I really dont know what else to say on here besides that I had a wonderful evening with my one and only, Danny! I am sleepy and tired and can't wait to jump in the shower and... sleep? Yeah, I think sleep sounds fantastic right now... lol Danny just said that we're going to sleep at 2am, lol, and for me to 'hold on'... hahaha Ummm, yeah, I think I'll pass out in the next 5 minutes or less and it's only 11:12pm... =o)

PS. I love my haircut!! (photos in my previous blog)... I just couldn't stop looking at myself in the mirror - hehe, silly, I know! Oh well, I dont always feel this way about myself, any boost to my self confidence is a bonus... hehehe

Update: I ended up staying up until after 1am... hehe, I AM a superwoman... at times =)

I love Danny

I love Danny... What's new =o)

I love this man of mine with every breath I take and every bit of my being. I can't breathe when I think of how I could have never met him or never given this man a chance to win my heart... It scares me of how fragile life is and how the choices we make can shape our entire life whether it's for good of bad. He's my life and my air... my very best friend. How could I have ever lived without him for 24 years... I have no idea... I remember being lonely, sad, depressed, and longed for a person who is... Danny.

How I wish I would have met him when I was 15 or 16... before I had a chance to know pain. I am alive and rejoicing every second of the day all because of Danny, my beloved one. He's showed me what Love really is, what it's like to be a girl wrapped in hugs and covered in kisses, what's it's like to have someone look into your eyes and you wish you could just melt together with this person.

It's hard to believe that Danny and I have walked through the same doors a million times, same stores, same church once or twice... walked the same streets, drove on the same roads and never crossed each others path. I guess God had a better plan, in it's perfect time... He's never late =)

Danichka, moy lyubimiy, ti u menya prosto solnishko... gde bi ya bila bez tebya??? Ya ne hochu znat'... mne s toboy prosto ray... ya bez tebya nemogu!!! Moyo schaste, moy mir, moya zhisn' vsya vokrug tebya i ya prosto blagodarna Bogu chto ti moy i ya mogu tebe otdat' vse moyo serdse i moyu lyubov'... eto schaste!!! Ya znayu chto ti znayesh kak krepko ya tebya lyublu... =) eto tebe ne sekret =o* I ya samaya schastlivaya bit lyubimoy toboy... ya tolko mogu predstavit' kak eto budet v rayu... ti i ya, vsegda ryadom... net nochi, vsegda den' i ti ryadishkom...

He is amazing, wonderful, a wise man, husband, friend, and soon to be daddy! So far I haven't met anyone like Danny, with such a heart and mind. I'm not bragging, but I think he really is the most fantastic human being =) I am fortunate to have had married this man - He's my life and love, my one and only, my beloved and adored man.

I am blessed.

New haircut experience...

Yesterday I went over to my next door neighbor, who is an older lady, an experienced hair dresser to get my hair cut since my hair was out of control... I've been going to her on and off for the past 7 years and she does a great job on the hair, only one issue... she pushes her ideas onto her clients and thinks she's all that, okay that's 2 issues. Her comments are always that she's 'the best in town' (though she works from home and doesn't do color - blah!), and that she's been cutting some stars hair back in Europe (yeah okay), but anyhow, she does do a good job and if only she would just listen to her clients a little more... But either way, she cut my hair and it being wet my hair looked just fine, in my eyes it was what I had asked her, though I did want it shorter but she had said that it would not look so good... well I came back home, shower and styled it... it looked fine for 1 hour and then my hair just puffed up and became just what I didn't want it to.

Last night I couldn't fall asleep and when I did I would wake up soon after and think about my hair, wishing I could call her today and have her fix it and coming up with words to use. Well, my morning went on as usual until I saw a creepy looking bug crawling across a bathroom floor - oh that was gross, I killed it with Danny's shoe and left it it for Danny to clean up after work - haha, well it was really gross! What's weird is I happened to be looking in a stop where the bug crawled out... I guess I subconsciously new something is about to happen - lol. Well, later I wanted to wash Danny's and my slippers (nice ones from Sharper Image) and ruined them! They tore apart... Oh, I was so sad... loved them, so soft with memory foam... they kept my feet cushioned, but now I don't have any slippers - 'time for new ones anyway' Danny says - OK =) I'm up for new ones, hehe

So, it's 11am and I called the hair dresser and she was okay with me stopping by. It's funny how hair stylist are... they never want to be wrong and in more then one way try to prove they are always right and the clients know nothing about hair... ummm yeah, if only I could see my head in the back and twist my arms out I could cut my own hair... not like I haven't cut hair before. Oh, and how I should have explained what I wanted better... well how much better can you explain then bringing a haircut from a magazine to show??? Hello, I'm confused... I brought with me the exact hairdo I wanted and she laughed at me for bringing it with me... lol, alright lady, she was making me unhappy, plus with my raging hormones I could have said a few things she wouldn't like, but I needed a hair cut and she's a neighbor for goodness sake! I think most women forget what it was like being pregnant and what hormones did do to them - lol. I told her EXACTLY what I DID NOT want, and that's what I came back home with yesterday. Well, today she made it how I wanted it... thank goodness! I can sleep at night now =) T-hehehe and leave the house happy =)

On a positive note... she is an okay lady, wouldn't want her as my mother or a friend but she's nice as a human, but a tough lady as a hair dresser. She was positive about pregnancy and how becoming a mother is a joy and an experience which can't be replaced by anything in the world, and how wonderful it is to have a 1st boy =) So, at least she lifted me up in that area... anything positive really helps! =)

Okay, we're leaving the house now... need to buy a couple of things and go eat - tootles!

Craiglist deal today.

Last night I was lurking on Craigslist and found a garage sale happening today until 5pm selling lots of maternity clothes... Danny and I decided to go there, but on the way there we stopped at this other girls house (also off of Craigslist) also for maternity clothes... yes, I'm in need of some maternity clothes for my growing belly =)

The clothes at the girls place were cute so I got a few things... pretty much all of the things, I only left 3 items and paid $40 - what a deal.

At the garage sale, I found a ton of things! Goodness, I think today was my day =) I bought such cute stuff, bunch from Pea in the Pod, Mimi Maternity, and Gap, plus Old Navy. But man, this was a STEAL! Some things were a $1, and the most expensive items was an adorable jacket from Pea in the Pod, originally $200+ and I only paid $15 - woohoo! Now I'm home and I'm going through my memory of the things I didn't buy and now I want them too - lol. Also, I added all the items up (total 19 pieces) and I only paid $60 - so I guess I paid only $3/piece - Oh, I'm loving it!!!

Craigslist rocks... We've bought out dining table there, office desk, office chairs, and now my maternity clothes. =) I'm sure I'll be buying the crib furniture set from there too when the time comes, though I'm already scanning through it every day - hehe. Some cute stuff, though some are over our budget... so I'm keeping my eyes open for a steal, again.

I just washed all the clothes and the pieces that haven't been worn before (NWT) have just been hung up, it's awesome having some cute things in my closet again, things that actually fit me! I spent $100 on clothes today and I can't be happier - all pieces are just adorable, I didn't even know such cute maternity clothes existed =)

I Love Craigslist - a steal here and a deal there - I'll shop there some more, soon!

Thursdays diary

So... today I had my 1st Midwife appt in a new Clinic... the midwife was great, very professional and very nice! Great combination. I ended up not getting my physical (all over again) since they got all the records from the other clinic, which was a bonus to my day. Anyway, in short, the midwife is nice and I glad to know the results of my blood work and ultrasound readings, and all seems super =)

At around 9:30 I called my mom to see if she's up and about so I could stop by and say 'hi' and give her the ultrasound pics... well, I was happy to hear she's ready for my visit. My mom was actually very happy to see me and really loved the ultrasound pictures of my little boy =) I was wrong about her in my previous post, maybe she had a bad day or maybe since Danny was with me last time we visited, she probably tried to be modest and not scare him off with her expressions of excitement, hehe. I donno, but she commented on cute I am and how pretty I look (nice outfit and all) and how the baby is so cute that she even kissed the little face on the ultrasound picture... =o)) I was happy to see my mom be so happy for me. In a way it was a relief to see such a pleasant reaction from my mother... as if I had been loved by her again.

Danny called me while I was visiting my mom and told me he got a trip to Edmonds, WA to deliver something for work and that we need to take the car I was using and how he'd like for me to come along. Hey, I don't get to see my hubby much during the week (only at breakfast and after work hours of 6-7pm - Waaaa!), so I was happy to be with him in the car for hours on end. We talked, discussed, had several laughing attacks - lol, listened to music and educational cd's, in one word, it was... WONDERFUL. I enjoyed my ride with my darling and I was surprised how nice I felt during the trip... hey, at least my feet aren't killing me at the end of the day... a super bonus. I was getting pretty sleepy on the way back home, hey, I don't wake up at 7am on a usual day... today was special - hehe =)

We are home now and it's 9:30pm, and I'm falling asleep at this laptop while Danny is showering... I am glad to be home and I can't wait to crawl into my bed next to Danny... I can't think of anything more appealing then this.

Tomorrow... and etc.

Tomorrow is my 1st appointment with a Midwife... I was told she is one of the best in the Clinic so I am really looking forward to meeting her. Seriously, I've wanted a midwife the entire pregnancy and now that my insurance coverage changed, I am able to have one that was recommended to me by my sis-in-law who worked there!

I have a long day tomorrow, first it's the appointment at 8:30am and then I'll stop by my sisters' house and see my niece, shortly after I'll visit my prior job I worked at and see my co-workers. Haven't seen any of them since end of June... and hopefully I'll have the energy to maybe buy some groceries on the way back home... =) Yes, I'm looking forward to tomorrow... I usually stay home during the week, but tomorrow I have the car all to myself and I'll take advantage of it =o)

I shared my U/S photos with Donna (my upline) and she seems soo excited, more then my mom =) It's interesting how some people are more expressive of their feelings. I hoped my mom would be thrilled about my pregnancy (I am the last girl in the family to have babies) and the fact that we finally know who it is. Donna is almost like a mother to me... just in the sense that she shows how much she cares... it's very pleasant. My mom is still the best in the world... wish she knew how much I still need her =(

Anyway, this blog is just a mumble of mine... a mix of things, feelings, emotions, and plans... =) I am ready to go to bed... so I WILL.

PS. It is such a wonderful feeling waking up and seeing my little angels face picture standing on my nightstand! I have no words... that little face almost seems to smile and I can't help but smile back at him... my little miracle, my little man. What a new experience this is for me... new love I couldn't have experienced before... new opportunities are awaiting, and new life ahead... I am satisfied.

Today's U/S!

Today's Ultrasound went fantastic!! The baby is a... BOY and as healthy as can be =)

We went in at 12:40 and were done at 1pm, yep almost a 1.5 hour appt! It was amazing to see our little peanut moving and bouncing around... what a difference from our 1st ultrasound... The baby then WAS the size of a peanut and today it's about 11 inches long... how cool?!?!? We got some cute little pics, the one amazing little face I couldn't wait to see today, with the cutest little button nose!! =o) We also got pics of hands and feet, beating heart, and a boy part to prove that he really is a BOY! Awwww, we are blessed to be parents to this one little human being... what an amazing feeling this is.

Today I am exactly 22 weeks, which puts me at 5 months... sweet! I have 4 more to go though. I am hearing comments from several people how I seem to show more, which really is killing me at times. I so wanted to be a cute little petite mommy... but I guess I am not as small as I really thought I would be. =o( The baby really is a joy to me, I guess I am sad that my body is doing it's own thing... packing on pounds as it wishes. I feel uncomfortable (physically) lots of times, but I really don't feel huge/fat. Anyway, on a positive note... I feel beautiful and health wise I feel great, except like some water retention and some hip aches, which are totally a part of the pregnancy - so I feel absolutely wonderful! I am taking the best vitamins there ever were and my body has proved me so... my baby is also benefiting from the goodness of the supplements I take!

I am blessed and fortunate for everything in my life, how can life be more satisfying?! =)

Tomorrow we're going to find out the sex of the baby... how great is that? Woohoo! I am absolutely thrilled... =)

Update on Friday blog - I actually ended up having a good day... Music helps, though I had a bit sad music on, but it was still helpfull... I guess my main issue was loneliness, I guess. =) But Danny came home at 5:15 which was about 1 hr earlier then it's been this week. We had my tasty (yes, it was) dinner and were done by 6pm... so we had a great rest of the evening.
Today we wanted to go check out this new church, but we ended up going to bed at 2am, and I woke up 30 minutes before the service began... so of course we didn't make it... lol Oh well, next Sunday will be better. Today, we just need to catch up on some things and enjoy our evening together... Danny is home tomorrow for the U/S (it's at 12:40pm), so we can stay up later tonight =)

I miss Danny so much when he's away at work... oh, how I can't wait to spend every day with him working on our business full time... though my part in this business will be part time after the baby is here... but for now, I want to help with anything I can until the baby is home.

This is funny, but Danny is sitting right behind me at his desk and I almost miss him already... so I gotta go and give this man of my life a great kiss... so peace out!!!

Tough night

What a night... I couldn't fall asleep on my regular pillow, felt like I had a pillow under my butt instead of my head... felt as though I was sleeping upside down. Well, I dug up a down blanket I had and folded it to fit under my pillow, so this way I was nicely propped up and on my back. Oh, that was a relief until about 3:30 when I couldnt sleep sitting anymore... plus I was hungry. So I ended up eating some cereal, glad my husband didn't wake up with all the light in the room and ding sounds from the spoon hitting the bowl. So, the rest of the night was me without the down blanket propping me up... I guess my hips got a nice rest, no pain this morning!

Now, I'm sitting here at 2:45pm and I'm tired... I dont have much desire to do anything... oh, and I need to take my vitamins still... that could make me feel a bit better.

Oh, what a boring blog... I have nothing much to say, except just vent a tiny bit... so here it goes... I'm tired, emotional, and since I have no car, I feel trapped at home (though I could go to Fred Meyer, about a 10 minute walk, but I dont want to walk that far...lol), I have no desire to do anything creative, paint or whatever... I'm sleepy and I still have to get my hair and make up done for the day... Aggghhh Oh, and dinner is coming up in about 3 hrs and I really dont want to make it (though it's gonna be yummy - mahi mahi fish filet and garden salad... yumm + some Haagen Dazs sorbet for desert).

I actually feel a little better letting it out here... maybe I could play some nice music loudly all over my place... hmmm, I'll let you know how that works for me =)

Peace out for now,

ciao